I just realized once I join the culinary arts there's no such thing as quitting unless you're dead, so I accidentally joined a gang... Smh I swear I be trying to get out the game but the game won't let me...THUG LIFE LOL
After my mother told me I was fat I vowed to make a change. I told a friend I needed something to change and he presented a challenge.
The “Paleo” challenge.
Apparently it’s a new fad diet - ew. I don’t want to do a diet. But he said it’s “no grains, no starch, no sugar”. And he made it a “chefs” challenge. See if I could come up with recipes following the rules and see what would happen if my body followed them as well.
So this is day 4. I slipped when I had a yogurt and inadvertently added 16grams of sugar to my body (oh and one corn chip). But I’ve been doing well. No intentional sugar, no starch, no grains. Little dairy and no alcohol.
And even though it’s only been day 4 and I obviously won’t see a physical change for a while, I feel infinitely lighter. I don’t know how to describe it. It’s like my body weighs an ounce. It doesn’t feel bogged down or heavy. I feel light on my feet. It’s kinda awesome. I do have a slight headache that I believe is sugar withdrawal but I’m excited! It’s going well and I’m hoping that when my mom gets back (21 days) she’ll notice a change.
I was so lucky to get a job when I’m home. I’m working “front of house” at a local restaurant. Which included today a crash course in hosting, busing, serving and general “dining room enforcer” (as my new mentor called me).
I was super apprehensive about working in a restaurant again. I used to do it in the summers between college an it was FUN. Surrounded by young people, other friends came in, we were all doing summer jobs of varying degrees. Now everyone is using their “various” degrees. As actuaries, lawyers, accountants, general paper pushers. And now for a month I am serving them. I was nervous I’d feel inadequate.
I met my “mentor” who’s teaching me the ropes. He learned everything in hospitality school and is shocked, SHoCKED, that LCB didn’t teach me this stuff. So he is.
I’m basically getting a one month crash course on how to serve in a restaurant. And I’m getting paid for it. This is invaluable experience and exposure and knowledge - I’m super psyched!
Inadequacies be damn. Ego be damned. This is a huge continuation on my culinary education and I’m getting paid for it!
(now tell that to my back which is screaming in pain after being on my feet for 8hrs!)
So I’ve had a sit down with some friends of mine because since the last heart break and close encounter I feel like I need some self reflection because I attract the wrong people.
So I was told:
1 - You drink too much. Quit with the drinking - you make stupid decisions on it. (Like making out with people!)
2 - Stop compromising. You say you want serious and then they say casual so then you’re like - ok casual! So stop compromising what you want for what they want.
3 - Be more honest with yourself. If he presents himself as an asshole and only wants casual in the beginning he does not deserve a second chance. Move on and be honest that he isn’t going to change or give you what you want.
4 - No sex before monogomany.
5 - Be coy. Be yourself. You’re awesome.
So ladies - take what you want from that. I know I am!
My mother has told me I am fat and need to lose weight.
"Sorry but it’s the truth. I think you’ve started to eat your feelings.".
“No Mom - I was in culinary school. I had to make and taste cream, butter and every combination I’m between. Now I can make my own dinners.”
But the more people talk about my weight or I talk about my body I get more uncomfortable.
I went through some of my clothes I left at home last year and yes they are tight. And then I remembered last year. I was working out, active and eating well (er) and when I bought the clothes I still felt uncomfortable in my body. That I needed to tone, tighten and lose. And now a year later I realize how stupid I was. I looked great. It was my head that told me I didn’t
So now it’s time to stop hating on my body but start working on it. So I reached out and got some great advice and so begins a new body journey.