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morninqs: gimmie

Thu, 23 May 2013 17:13:36 -0400

morninqs:

gimmie

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need

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need

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buzzfeed: Ann Perkins is the most underrated character on Parks...

Wed, 22 May 2013 16:56:06 -0400

buzzfeed:

Ann Perkins is the most underrated character on Parks and Rec.

Thanks what I’ve decided to do

Wed, 22 May 2013 15:32:48 -0400

Thanks what I’ve decided to do

Getting another tattoo during my one day lay over on June...

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:41:23 -0400

Getting another tattoo during my one day lay over on June 15th.

It’s an “M”, on my foot, that represents “Maggie” - my dog. I miss her like a mother fucker (sorry mom!) and love the idea of her symbolized on my foot, walking with me every step of the way.

Strange. Don’t care.

It’ll be white with a little bit of peach.

What’s the favorite?

jamesnord: keep you mega yachts, your floating palaces with...

Tue, 21 May 2013 11:28:50 -0400

jamesnord:

keep you mega yachts, your floating palaces with state of the art everything. if i had the means it would be a sailboat for me. i would crawl out to the front of the boat and lay shirtless on the sun heated wood, and let it all disappear to the sound of a sail unfurling.

Verd.

Looking at my texts the morning after a rough night out

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:52:24 -0400

whatshouldwecallme:

When I was a teenager we would lie outside at night until the...

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:39:33 -0400

When I was a teenager we would lie outside at night until the wee hours of the morning counting falling stars and making wishes.

I miss that simplicity sometimes.

Me after my exam.

Mon, 20 May 2013 10:00:35 -0400

Me after my exam.

Me before the exam.

Mon, 20 May 2013 05:33:38 -0400

Me before the exam.

Role.ModelFinally a good one for the youngen’s

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:53:41 -0400

Role.Model

Finally a good one for the youngen’s

Latest French Words Learned

Sun, 19 May 2013 09:08:49 -0400

Perdu: Lost
A Peu Pres: About

Thought process while studying for my exam.

Sun, 19 May 2013 09:03:48 -0400

Thought process while studying for my exam.

I love this picture

Sat, 18 May 2013 17:54:27 -0400

I love this picture

I bought tiny bikini bottoms thinking they’ll make my...

Sat, 18 May 2013 17:52:58 -0400

I bought tiny bikini bottoms thinking they’ll make my growing ass smaller

………….

A tan might help…

Have you made your decision about re-opening that, erg, can of worms(relationship)?

Thu, 16 May 2013 13:51:22 -0400

I just posted that this afternoon so it’s a little fresh! (but thanks for the question!)

I’ve always been inclined to say no for a number of reasons. Knit and NYC are unstable people and I don’t want to invite not only that into my life but their judgement and jealousy. I know it sounds so self centered to say they we’re jealous but they straight up said they were sooooo….

And for Lady - a much as I miss our friendship she has chosen (and made efforts) with these girls and not me. And I don’t think I should pursue a relationship with someone any further when they make that judgement and choice - considering I basically pleaded with her not to.

And we don’t live anywhere NEAR each other so the likelihood of me seeing theses girls again in my lifetime is slim.

I just miss having that connection to that period of my life.

But I have my degree for that :)

But bottom line - if people make you doubt yourself, your worth, your contribution as a friend (and I know my friends think I’m an awesome one) then they are not worth having in your life.

And I haven’t missed them since. Just makes me scratch my head every now and then.

Second Chances?

Thu, 16 May 2013 10:50:00 -0400

My roommate from university is getting married this weekend. I’m thrilled for her, but also a little bit sad.

She and I lived together for our 2nd, 3rd and 4th years together. We had our ups and downs but we were really close because we shared so much of our university experience together. We were always hanging out with the same crowd and we’d always become a “3” with another girl, but no matter what the two of us seemed to stick together.

Something changed in our 4th year though. A good friend of mine (and of hers) came to live with us. The dynamic swiftly changed and her jealousy of me permeated throughout our living situation. (She was jealous of my island home, my red hair, my twin - all of which I can not, and would never want to, change) I run from conflict and tried my very best to be the best type of friend I could, but almost everything I did was taken either out of context, or assumed to be the worse. It was unbelievably stressful on me and I was sad but happy to leave when I graduated. I knew I’d miss her (Let’s call her Lady) but I wouldn’t miss living with her and Knit (the other roommate)

Fast forward and I moved to NYC and found out one of our mutual friends lived there too. I was thrilled. She and I were friends first and I brought her into our fold.

Except something was very different in NYC. She wasn’t the person I thought she was, and somehow ended up living with my boyfriend (we met through her) and she was not only basket case to live with, but a HORRIBLE roommate (like psycho) and this changed our friendship. Things came to a head but she “broke up with me” over text message.

I knew that Knit and Lady were close to her still so I thought I’d send them an email explaining NOT my side, but that she (NYC) and I decided not to be friends anymore but I hoped that that wouldn’t affect our relationships since we had been friends for such a long time. I specifically told them I did NOT want them to pick sides but that they could be friends with both of us, but we just wouldn’t be friends with each other.

Knit sent me back the most hateful email I thought I could ever receive. Declaring me a drama queen, of ALWAYS being one, and that NYC was a better friend that I would be any day.

To say I was hurt was an understatement. Our relationship quickly, and promptly ended.

Lady however, Lady is a different story. She got caught up between not only NYC and Me, but Knit and Me, and decided to keep in touch with Knit and NYC, not me. I’ve tried over the years to keep in contact but it just doesn’t work for some reason.

When my father passed away is the ONLY time I’ve heard from Knit and NYC in almost 5 years. It was a hollow peace offering.

When I wished Lady an amazing day for her upcoming wedding, she asked me if I had changed my mind about reaching out to Knit and NYC, saying that they’d love to hear from me.

News.to.me.

Why is it my court to reach out to these girls? They exited from my life (in the most dramatic of ways) and my life hasn’t been any worse of without them.

Except they are invited to Lady’s wedding, and I am not.

And that, that hurts.

I would give them a second chance if only for Lady, but I really don’t want to invite that into my life again.

Is it worth it to be included in the University group again? Even though it all just feels a little bit hollow?

I just don’t know.