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Secrets shared today

  • Him: I've been married. I'm divorced.
  • Me: I haven't called anyone my boyfriend since 2009.

My self induced intervention

So I’ve had a sit down with some friends of mine because since the last heart break and close encounter I feel like I need some self reflection because I attract the wrong people.

So I was told:

1 - You drink too much. Quit with the drinking - you make stupid decisions on it. (Like making out with people!)
2 - Stop compromising. You say you want serious and then they say casual so then you’re like - ok casual! So stop compromising what you want for what they want.
3 - Be more honest with yourself. If he presents himself as an asshole and only wants casual in the beginning he does not deserve a second chance. Move on and be honest that he isn’t going to change or give you what you want.
4 - No sex before monogomany.
5 - Be coy. Be yourself. You’re awesome.

So ladies - take what you want from that. I know I am!

this is why I’m done with douchebags/dickheads/idiots

can you imagine receiving that as a girl?

a hot

After an awkward night in the kitchen

  • Swag (text): Are we cool? Are you cool?
  • Me (text): Dude - you broke it off. You can't expect me to do cartwheels around you. It's gonna be awkward but lucky for us it's almost over.
  • Swag ( text): Sorry i didnt know you felt bad or awkward about all of it, ill let you be
  • Me - silently crushed that it still needs to be reiterated that he has dumped me and no, he has not realized his potentially fatal mistake.
  • Friend: But I'm confused - what do you expect from these relationships?
  • Me: I'm tired of just because I might be leaving or I'm from another country everything has to be labeled as either " must end" or can only be "casual". I really just want to meet someone and just see how things go. Why does everything have to be defined? Can't it just be "hey you're cool I like you let's see if we like each other?" and then just figure it out along the way? How is that so hard? From now I'm just gonna be upfront and say "Not interested in casual. Here is my life. Take it or leave it."
  • Friend: Well since you don't know where you'll be in 6 months that might work, or it might not.
  • Me: That's if I meet someone. Right now "this" (waves arms around body) is on lock down.
  • Friend: Fair enough!

And the truth

Frenchman and I met on June 21st to be exact. Fete de le musique. A friend of a good one. I knew he was solid.

We went out on our first date 5 days later. Him having the balls to get my number from our mutual and text me the first night we met. “It was lovely to meet you. I hope we see each other soon.” And then he asked to see me, soon.

After the first date I traveled for 2 weeks. Him constantly texting and checking in. I was flattered and started fantasizing what type of man he would be. Attentive was known.

And so in July, after my last trip, we started seeing each other, regularly. The respect was mutual and we enjoyed each other.

But. His past was complicated, just as much as my future.
And as we spent time together I knew it had to end. In fact I tried to end it before it did, twice. You can totally tell when someone is falling in love. Too bad it wasn’t me.

And then.

He started school. A transfer of such, same level, same passion. I would never have thought of him except after the first time we hung out together (in a group) I couldn’t stop admiring his swag. God damn he has swag.

And so while I dated Frenchman Swag was cooking in my class kitchen. We would all get together in a group and we managed to always find each other. At a bar, waiting for class, walking down the street, we orbited each other over and over.

But yet I still saw Frenchman.

I couldn’t give up something for the idea of another…so I waited.

I waited until one night, planned by me, “we all went out”., and still we found each other. Then our hands intwined. And then we kissed. We had begun and another ended.

So I had to end it with Frenchman. After 4 months and a defining weekend it was over. I was such a coward. Such a coward. /p>

I chose him.

And I don’t regret it.

Latest Status

  • Me: Oh am I ever going to get my heart broken on this one
  • Friend: You don't know know that!
  • Me: Oh but I do.

Sometimes life pulls people towards you. Suddenly you are hovering in their orbit. Gravity pulls and spins you both together. The thin invisible elastic band snaps you back whenever you’re too far apart. You sit next to each other, fall in step when you beat the pavement and then they’re apart of your world. So easily they slip into your routine.

Life is a very strange journey.


  • Me: URGH I really want to get rid of my jiggle round the middle...
  • Him: you are beautiful
  • Me: nah I should tighten...I need to rejoin the
  • Him: No. You are magnificent.
  • Me: Well I have a great opportunity to be just casual when I'm home next. I think it'll be a lot of fun but that's all he wants.
  • Guy Friend: He's an idiot.
  • Me: most definitely.